Monday, May 5, 2014

Back with a bang (ok.... Just tears and venting)

Wow, it's been a while. Near with me. I don't have a laptop right now so typing on my iPhone!  Fun stuff!
I haven't written in what, a year?  Year and a half?  Lets just say I am busy, busy, busy!  I'm also a liar. I don't have a job. One child is in school 4 days a week from 7:45-1:45 and the other goes two days for three hours!  I'm really just enjoying bliss while doing laundry, vacuuming, cleaning.... Taking an UNINTERRUPTED shower!
Anyway, I am back temporarily to say F$&@ YOU autism!
You have taken my little girl, and locked her in a world that NO ONE knows anything about!  Screw you!
I should mention that Macie is doing great and making huge strides in school and at home. She has amazing g teachers and family is awesome in supporting her.
I'm just angry that my sweet little girl can not verbalized her feelings. She's is funny, smart, caring, and beautiful inside and out. These traits radiate from her, but without words. I see her frustrations and I feel them every moment of every day!  She works so hard to try to communicate, and then frustration takes over and she shuts down.
My heart and soul are hurting for her. It's normal, I'm her Mommy!